TroubleZone.Net

.. wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there!1

Yeah, it’s been a long time2, but I had3 a pretty rough time to go through..
Of course, I’m still standing and all this stuff, but for a guy like me who believes so invincibly in justice, the hearing in court was a mixed impression.
Don’t get me wrong, the hearing was great and the court’s verdict wasn’t that bad for me — but the opposing party’s appeal really shocked me..

I mean, anybody I ever told the details of how the accident occurred agrees with me and says it’s _completely_ the fault of the opposing party. But instead of accepting the verdict, they issued an appeal!

So, I’m still asking myself: why do I have to wait to get my money? Seriously, the accident happened 2007-11-07, so more than 450 days have and I still have to drive a damaged car, still have to wait for the amount due to me and still have to wait to come into my own..

But I’m not complaining about all that stuff — this time, things are4 different, much more different..
This time, I’m not only bearing up against pain.
This time, I’m not only rebounding.
This time, I’m facing _any_ problem or enemy!

That’s not an empty phrase, but instead the truth:
I’m haunting all these people who told me that I won’t ever succeed.
I’m pusing myself, again and again and again — nothing can stop me.
I’m reaching each targeted objective, no matter how ambitious it might be.

The first “episode” was completing my planned technical upgrades by buying several things like additional 2 GB DDR2-RAM5, another Samsung HD501LJ for backups from my newly created 1 TB-RAID-0 array6, a Casio Wave Ceptor watch7 with lots of technical gimmicks and the Teufel Concept E Magnum Power Edition8.

The second episode means _a lot_ to me and that’s why it got this extra-paragraph:

VW Scirocco III 1.4 TSI Rising Blue
        
[front view]                                [rear view]

Yes, it’s a car9, but it’ll be the first one I actually bought with my own earned money — that’s something _very_ special for me..

The third episode will be kinda “journey” through Germany (meeting friends, seeing the sea after a long period of absence, etc.) and I promise to take photos!

The fourth episode is a long-time one and started even before episode two was planned: finding Ms. “Not-perfect-but-damn-close-to-my-demands”.. Let’s see what will happen here..

Take care,
Martin..

1. Nickelback — Gotta Be Somebody [↩]
2. I guess more than three months are long.. [↩]
3. And unfortunately will for next couple of months.. [↩]
4. And will be for quite some time.. [↩]
5. From OCZ’s Reaper HTC-series, of course! [↩]
6. Which consists of two Samsung HD501LJ with firmware upgraded to CR100-13 — thanks to Dell which offer the upgrades strictly for their drives, but they work with _any_ HD501LJ.. [↩]
7. I preferred the blue WVA-460DSE-2AVER-model, not that black WVA-460DSE-1AVER-one.. [↩]
8. I preferred to choose the black-painted model.. [↩]
9. AFAIK, Volkswagen doesn’t plan to release it in the USA.. [↩]

.. and their ever staring eyes
Now is the time to defend your ground
Destiny will call, to remind us all
Now fly free, so far from here
This life we know will end
In dreams of everlasting pain
The fallen now rise again1

As this blog is all about a life’s trouble, I want to pour out my woes to the world this time..

So, let’s get things right: my life sucked.. It wasn’t completely worthless since my mates were always around, keeping me alive by providing kinda “life support”, words of advice and stuff like that.. And they’re also always the ones I can count on whenever life comes in with another hit right into my face..

But honestly, I don’t want to complain about all those troubles2) as it simply wouldn’t help.. And so, I just keep asking myself “Who the fuck feels so pissed off that I get knocked down again — just one second after I regain my feet?” Because every single way towards the finish line is full of obstacles somebody put in my way3..

I really don’t know where my life’s going to4), but I’m still hoping that things will be better — _soon_!

Though, I’m facing a typical German proverb right now: being right doesn’t necessarily mean that you are in the right5! — Or as a long story:

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1. DragonForce — The Flame Of Youth [↩]
2. Hey, I _am_ right here, in the center of the TroubleZone! ; [↩]
3. No, I won’t give up — it simply doesn’t exist within my vocabulary! [↩]
4. Does anyone know this? ; [↩]
5. I couldn’t find a “correct” equivalent idiom for this, so I tried my best to “built” one.. [↩]